I've got to begin again

It has been quite awhile since I've been able to blog, mostly due to crazy holidays, two small very demanding children, and my incredible ability to simultaneously feel like I have nothing to say and too much to say and so I don't end up saying anything. Not very productive. So here I am trying to unjumble my thoughts and start over.

I think it would be helpful to try to put in print what I plan to accomplish this year so here goes:

1. I want to be a better mom. I want to not yell at my kids so much and get so frustrated with them. I want to spend more time playing with them and just enjoying them.

2. I want to make some progress towards figuring out what I plan to do with the rest of my life. I am only 30 so I have some years to fill ahead of me. I like staying at home with my kids now but I know financially and spiritually that one day when my kids are in school full time, I will have to find some sort of mission, calling, vocation, and plunge in. I do not know what that will look like and at the end of the year, I'd like to have more of a plan in mind.

3. I want to declutter my house to the point where it looks less like we're trying to stuff entirely too much into a too little house. I've made progress on this but I have a ways to go yet.

4. I want to find more opportunities to sing. I got a bunch of music related stuff for Christmas and I really want to use it. I want to write music and sing it and enjoy it. I don't know whether this will somehow transfer into helping me figure out #2 but either way, I need to somehow make more time for this.

5. I want to know where I am physically going to be for the next several years. DH has applied for positions at a few different universities this year and will do so again next year and I just want to stop thinking of what if we have to sell this house and move again. I want to be settled for awhile.

6. I want to cultivate more couples friends. I have friends, DH has some friends, but we only have one couple that we are both friends with. This makes it hard to hang out with people together. More couples friends with kids would be good.

7. I want to blog regularly. At least every week if at all possible. It helps to get this stuff out in print.

8. I want to do more work with the Enneagram. This is a great personality typing that works so well. I want to learn more about it.

9. By the time DH and I celebrate our 10 year anniversary this summer I want our marriage to be rock solid and both of us to look back on 2004 and wonder how we could have possible gotten so off course. This is another area that we've already made progress on but I want to make even more.

10. I want to rebuild my faith so that I feel that incredible sense of peace I can only seem to find when I am in right relationship with God.

I'm not sure how exciting it is to read about this but I promise more interesting content in the weeks to come. Happy new year.